Teenager (Kindergarten) School

Today was Grace's first day of kindergarten (or teenage school as she kept saying). According to her it was magnificent. She's so excited to be in a new class full of old friends and classmates and she really likes her new teacher. I couldn't be happier for her.

I thought I would do the classic cry-on-the-first day-of-kindergarten-mom-thing but I didn't. I certainly did the first day of preschool two years ago. Even though it's a major step up from a few days a week to going to school Monday through Friday, I'm just happy we made it to kindergarten. I know she's growing up fast and instead of wanting to hold onto her little forever (which I also want to do) I'm more thrilled that I know she gets the chance to grow up.

After Bailey's death the fear of cancer came back with a vengeance and I spent a few weeks worrying over small details in Grace's health. We're still grieving for her. It even took a few days on our amazing Make-A-Wish trip on the Disney Cruise for me to calm down and allow myself to enjoy it. 

And now that Grace is in kindergarten I'm just overjoyed. I feel like cancer has no hold on us. Which is a very freeing feeling, one I don't often allow myself to feel.

But I felt it today, and it felt magnificent.